My mind is travelling... something-very-fast miles per hour... haay... I just wondered if this thing is really for me.. When can I stay optimistic on something and when can I declare that something is not within my line of expertise.. and quit. Yeah, such a not so nice word.. quit. I grew up thinking that quitting is only for the lossers.. Winners never quits.. hummm.. probably not all the time.. i dont know I'm a bit confused. I prayed to the Lord about this.. no reply so far. Or probably my mind is so busy contemplating, i could no longer hear the Lord Jesus speaking.

I'll check.. 1 month and when I still got nothing.. I'll quit and focus more on my strength...