Pastor Noel's sermon:

Matthew 5:4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.


Some thoughts:
The purpose of mourning is not to suffer the loss but to be grateful that one person came to your life and change your world.

Is heaven not boring? I mean, out there we won't feel any pain.. no more problems. And we already know everything according the the book of Corinthians. Isn't it boring that we don't have any problems any more? In short, is heaven worth it?

As I began to ponder on this thought, I heard a voice in my heart saying " maybe heaven cannot be fathom by your mind". Probably heaven is so wonderful that my mind cannot even imagine/comprehend/fathom its beauty, its make-up, its content, its time boundness, etc.

Is heaven worth it? For sure hell isn't the best alternative so knowing that hell isn't a very nice place to be then heaven is worth it. :)

Venditta

Remember remember the fifth of NovemberGunpowder, treason and plot.I see no reason why gunpowder, treasonShould ever be forgot...

Quote:

Evey Hammond: Who--who are you?
V: Who? Who is but the form following the function of what... and what I am is a man in a mask.
Evey Hammond: I can see that.
V: Of course you can. I'm not questioning your powers of observation, I'm merely remarking on the paradox of asking a masked man who he is.

Bleach

Bleach, keeps me entertained during my relaxation time. :) I have to admit I got bored with it for the first few episodes but when the guy(Ishida) with spirit arrow appeared everything went very interesting. I end up watching a bleach marathon.:)

C.S. Lewis on Love

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable... The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers of love... is Hell.

March 22, 2006

with 97.something%-99% accuracy rate we could say we are alright.
we passed the test and at the same time we failed.
margin of error = 0.01

translation:
we will survive!

Quote of the day:

"I need a map because I get lost whenever I look into your eyes."

In your arms I found my place in this universe.
In your touch is a song in my heart.
Your every breathe is an eternity unfolding.
Your gaze is a future to behold.

Take me to our small world.
Where time stops and there is only you and me.
Take me to my deepest dream.
Where this world seems as faint as a yesterday.

Take me... take me away...

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There are so many things to worry about. Right now, I'm worried. I am worried... scared... terrified... of my future. Somehow, I can say that God is not on my side. It's my fault... I have no one to blame. I did this to myself. When I read the Psalms... I often search for somebody who has sinned against the Lord and still was rescued. I couldn't think of anything else but David. Somehow I feel like how David feel. He felt that God is not on his side. Yet he run to towards God and ask for help. Somehow, that's what I did, I run to God asking for His deliverance and mercy. "In your loving kindness, remember me... Oh Lord". It is my prayer that God will hear me... "that my cry won't fall out in vain." I believed in a BIG GOD who solves big problems. Somehow doubts came to my mind to steal my faith away. It steals my joy also. I need to pray... pray some more for rescue and deliverance. I have always looked on God and he has always rescued me but still I cannot help but look at the wind.

Oh Lord, look at me as if you are looking at the Lord Jesus Christ. Wipe away my transgessions. Clean me and I will be whiter than snow. Wash me clean and deliver me from my sins.

Amen.

Written during my vacation leave....

It's over... I mean, what we waited for happened two nights ago. It didn't came as a surprise... it came just like a flashed number... another person added to the dead list.

I don't know what to feel... all I'm feeling now.. are pressures from what happenend. I got stressed out plus my girlfriend keeps on whining. It drives me nuts. "Da panguyab pa!!!"
Lets just say, its part of the game. My officemate and I call it, "Signning the License Aggrement".
It's just sickenning sometime; It dries my soul.

On the lighter side, it's almost my birthday. Should I be happy? I don't know, but I think I should be thankful to God that I'm alive and thriving. I am grateful... I am blessed. I achieved my (short term) goal and pursueing for the long term ones. I enjoy God's mercy and faithfulness every single day. God has rescued me many times in my life and has lifted me out from certain dangers.... etc. Praise the Lord for what He has done and for all that He is going to do. I am a 23 year old miracle!!!!

Crawling Notes

This week was tough... I thought it was an easy week (with a two-day vacation) but it got hard..
Still in everything... God is still God and He is still good no matter what happened.

As of this moment... the worst has not happened yet but it is already anticipated.
It's like an enivitable event happened in fast tracked... At first, my hard choleric emotion
really puffed up but later... I softened and begun to understand that sometimes we need to take some necessary risks (even illogical ones - necessarily illogical risk) at some point. It happened that for some people it is hard and costly. I reflected on what happened and I could say that if I were in their position, I would have taken the same risk.

God bless them.

Running Notes....3

Another Sex story
I just overheard of a story of a Filipina who is used as a sex toy by two American nationals. I heard more than one stories just like this before and hearing it again and agin makes me feel sad.
Questions flow in my mind. Whys and Hows. It's sad... Somehow I want to dismiss my feeling that they are in that situation because it is their choice to be there. But what if they are there because they don't know any better. They don't know that there is a way out and there is a better way to live. Maybe that should be our role as Christians, to show people that there is a better way to live. There is a better way to enjoy life. There is a cleaner and better way of living and that is God's way of living. We don't have to rut while living.

Giving what we don't have
We cannot give what we don't have... so if we don't yet realize/know they better way then we cannot help others as well. it will be like "blind leading the blind".

God is good and His mercies endures forever.
You know, I read a book that says that if you kept on saying that God is good and His mercy endures forever, it will sink in our spirits. And our eyes will begin to see that God is good. "Taste and see the Lord is good". After everything that happens to us, I believe that God is still good.

Running Notes part 2

Walk OUT!!!
UP students are planning to have a class walk-out today. For 4 years I have heard of the same crap! Walk-out? For what? For the President to resign? Duh???? I have heard a looot of complains against the government.. against the budget... against the program.. against "self-expression"... against everything.

Blame it!!!!
I think some of the UPians are fun of playing the "blame-it game". It's easy... you can play it too. All you have to do is... to say "Blame it!!!!". Blame it to... the sun.. the moon the stars.. the teacher.. the president.. the government. Blame it! Blame it! Blame it! Don't do anything... just blame it. Don't take resposiblity... just blame it to anybody but yourself. I love UP and I love being a UPian. However, I think I have grown enough to realize blaming anybody to for any
situation will not do any good.

God will make way
I believe that the President is accountable to God and if the opposition's complains and allegations against the president is true then, God will be the one who will make the president pay. I believe God can take charge and God can build up a president or take a president out of power.

Pro-Active Protest
If you want to make a protest then make a pro-active protest rather than a re-active protest. What is a pro-active protest? A protest that does not use much mouth, a protest the uses the mind, heart, and spirit. A good example of that is, Mother Theresa; she made a protest against poverty and apathy. Now, her protest was made known. There are many more.. I just can't think of any other for now.:)

Summary
I believe we can count on God in this case. Let us be like David, that even, when Saul would throw a spear on us, we will say "I will not do anything against God's annoited".